Since the moderators don't seem to have a problem with this line of discussion:
I am not religious. I spent a fair amount of time in church as a kid and understand the basic program. Basically, I see no compelling evidence of some higher authority protecting the earth or its people. In fact, if there is some higher authority, I'd like to sit down and file some particular complaints about how things are being run.
But, I don't think there is. Every time I go to church, be it a wedding mass or funeral (and that's about it), I feel like my head is burning. The unity of faith and its pure truth is a beautiful thing and I respect that in its pure setting. I also respect it whereever else it lives. I don't disparage anyone their personal beliefs and I thank them not to push theirs on me.
Anyone that truly hates the Greater Forces, whatever they may be, faces a nasty cocktail - 1) there is some bigger force; and 2) It/He/She/They do not like you. This would make it difficult to change course, as it isn't a matter of self determination.
The peace that True Belief brings to its bastions is enviable. I wish my life were more calm at the core. But, wishing so isn't sufficient to change my essential, intellectual lack thereof. I can't say to myself "look at those happy people, now think like them". Beauty and truth are often not aligned. Not that I deny others' truth either, but I cannot accept it for myself.
We all have our own reasons for what we believe. I stopped trying to convince people that I'm "right" long ago. I appreciate what faith brings to its true believers and also watch high members of churches do unspeakable evils to their followers. Again, truth, beauty, and true faith are often cast as parallel when in fact they are far from it.
I didn't edit, nor even read this mindstream intentionally, and hope it is coherent.