I try and avoid thinking of the future or the topic of afterlife, god . It’s hard for me to believe in heaven , I used to now I’m skeptical it’s not made up garbage … to brainwash the masses .
Could be true , but no way I can imagine non existent or even comprehend it .
Do stuff to relax , I watch sports or tv. Eventually I’ll find a job just not sure what I can do .. the more free time you have worse this fear is .. don’t let mind wander .