Tarub, that's terrible. I've faced the same exact situation twice in my life, when you just don't know what to do even though the truth is staring you right in the face.
It took a lot of thinking, and eventually I realized I had to do what was best for my own well-being, even if those around me wouldn't understand and it could wind up costing me a lot of the financial security I had built up over the years.
I know letting go of a long term love can be difficult, but sometimes there's just no coming back when it just doesn't work any more, but in the end I'm sure you'll come to the same realization that I did some years ago...
"Damn, these new speakers sound a lot better than those broken pieces of sh*t."