I go through phases. I'll decide to go cold turkey sometimes for a month, 2, even 6. It's not enough to know that I do need a drink... I need to make sure I'm not aggrivated by not having one as well.
When I was about 27 or 28, I had had this major opportunity with the firm I was with and took over one of spin offs we did. I ran this company for about 2-3 years. It was great money, but the stress was unbelievable. I was working about 75-80 hourse a week. I've always been a tequila drinker and I when I came home I usually sip a couple of tequila on the rocks. One night when I was working at home on a Sunday preparing for the week, I was drinking tequila. I was pulling an all-nighter and found myself without anymore tequila. I was looking all around and couldn't find any. It was 3am and they stop selling booze at 2pm in Pinellas county. So what did I do? I remembered this drive through liquor store in Tampa. So I hoped in my car and started making he 40 minute trek. I got about half way across the causeway and I just pulled over. This is no joke... I pulled over and said this outloud to myself: It's 3am on Sunday. You'll be driving this same way... again in about 3 hours. You're in your underwear and your driving to Tampa to get tequila.
I sat there a second, got really scared about that, and turned the car around and went home. I didn't drink a drop for over a year so I could prove to myself that I wasn't in the midst of a problem. I guess that always kinda hung with me so I do like to "prove" to myself that alcohol is not important to me.
I do like a glass of wine and a good tequila, but if I was told I could never drink again, I don't think I'd care one way or the other. I'm just as fond of iced tea!