Wow...that must have been hard at that age. What happened? Is your mom still with us?\n\nI was fortunate enough to have the last of my parents till I was in my late 40s, and they both lived a full life with lots of successes in them (they owned a business, traveled a lot, got to retire) but it still hurts so much. I don't think I will ever get over the fact that they're BOTH gone and that I don't have them to rely on anymore for advice, guidance, support, etc.\n\nAs a matter of fact, NIN, at some point soon I will probably be saying goodbye to all you guys here because I won't be able to take the loss any further; if it means my life, so be it.\n\n\nhttps:\/\/suicidepreventionlifeline.org\/\n\nCall them man. Get some help. I know it's rough, but it's not worth your life.